Friday, December 3, 2010
{ 12:12 PM }
I dun care wateva it is..i am gna be strong..wateva is it shall be personal..nt gna let all these stuff affect ma mood wen i am out nd all..gng to enjoy..shall be strong nd deal wateva tat comes ma way..no more running away or escaping or brushing it under the carpet..ready to move on nd gna persist once i hav decide wat the truth is..i hav ma close frenz nd tats all i need.nd they r the only ppl tat knows the truth nd the only ppl who needs to noe..takin 1 step at a time..i will find ma way once again..COS BELINDA NEVER gives up or says die...i will pick maself up nd walk with full confidence nd upright nt afraid or embarrassed.all i cn say is belinda will be BACK!!
Labels: coming back round
{ 10:31 AM }
hey,i noe i am blogging aft so long.idk jus felt like blogging again once again..too frustrated.i wonder y is thr always a routine or a pattern ta ppl wld follow.like wen they lose smth they will tend to do these certain thing to try nd get back wat they hav lost.however they dun realise tat the more they do the more they lose.i am jus annoyed by the fact that thr always has to be some drama..once things r gng well,some drama has to start..i realli dun understand y..
1 ting i am sure is i realli realli miss u so much..nd i so wished tat we had tok tings out.we jus left things like tat..u dun even noe wat was wrong nd i bet u dint reflect nd still wondering wat was wrong.but recently u hav change so so much tat i dun even noe who u r alr..looking for the 1 i loved.hating the new u...the way u r,the way u tok.
1 thing i am so upset abt is tat tis end of yr realli is kind shattering mi inside bit by bit..in 1 month so so much has happen..the person i tot knew mi disappointed mi so so much..claiming to be who u r,u cnt even rmb things abt mi..u dun even noe mi..if u say i am like tat then wat r u??hav u tot abt tat..saying who u r hav u eva abt mi at all or was it all abt u only??i made u ma everyting,helped u,thr 4 u wen u called nd everyting but u left mi nth at all..it hurts so much u noe wat happened nd wat u did..i dint expect tis fr u..i have seen u do tis to ppl but nvr tot to mi..cos in a way i looked up to u..but guess i was totally nd utterly wrong.still so lost for words..
1 more ting i am so freaking upset abt was wat happens wen everyting tat u believe in turns out to be all a lie...lie lie lie..i realli dunno wat to say abt tis..i jus wna 4get everyting every single god damn ting..i wish i cld turn back time nd nvr wen for the party..cos u guys r all fakes..fakes fakes...liars liars..i cnt believe wat it..srsly i realli tot u were the most geninue 1..believed every word u said.but nw i find out tat u lied to mi..so unexpected..totally lost right nw...who to believe,whether the words u say r truth..i dint ask u once only..the only standing brick jus collasp..i was honest wif u guys,y cnt u guys do the same..i am realli upset wif u..i realli dun wan to tok abt it or tink abt it or face tis eva again...all will be 4gotten like a bad dream.take care and gdbye to u guys.hope u guys realli find the gals u deserve..tak it as i nvr existence nd i vanish into thin air,disappear..
I realli wna thx aida,kav,nas,ken,sangar,bay nd wc for being thr for u...u guys r realli darlings..I LOVE LOVE U GUYS LOADS!!BFFs FOREVA OK!!promise=)
Labels: tears rolling down continously..heartbroken
Monday, May 31, 2010
{ 2:33 AM }
hey peeps finally going to update ma blog..haha..been a busy yr..what more a busy wk..haha..sigh sigh...days are passing realli fast..things r pretty much being rush through..haha..whhheee...anyway ha i wan a fossil watch!!!haha..omg freaky tired...stupid construction work 8 am in the morning start making such a din.aaahhh cnt even slp properly..hmm if only like last time cn crash jes hse.haha its so noise nw here..all the way til 5.30!!sian..haha...super tired nd moody lo..but still making the effort to remain as normal..life still has 2 go on.haha..anyway uncle's bbq yst was super fun nd funny..leslie is like super strong nd crazy tgt wif wc..haha..gna stop here now i guess...will continue tmr or smth.=)
Sunday, April 11, 2010
{ 1:07 AM }
heyya ppl,kk guess i am enjoying the hols.like seriously..
haha...fri was a blast.
sat was gr8 too.woke up at like 1 like tat.head felt heavy but who cares haha...then ate roti prata..daddy brought mi for breakfast but it turned out 2 be ma lunch.haha...opps..then wen temple abt 2 plus.till abt 4 plus..haha while mummy was praying mi nd daddy were tokin nonsense at the langar hall..haha..then aft that papa was nice enuff to drop mi at btp.reach abt 4 plus 5 i guess...by the time i reach iffy,leon nd mimi were alr thr..haha...they alr started plying pool.so we joined in...leon was like on a winning streak..but we did win iffy nd leon 2 times.haha...i won bay in a game..haha..we were suppose 2 head 2 chinatown by 6.30 to watch yuresh gig but guess we were kinda late nd still delaying..anyway leslie said he was at bugis so we tld him to mit us nd yuresh 2..journey thr was kinda long.otw leslie said he was otw home alr nd yuresh said it was ok..we were otw alr so might as well jus go...we had the kfc family fest.haha...family fest...hehe...was so full aft that...haha..anyway we saw humpty dumpty near the kfc..haha..those that were thr wld noe wat i am tokin abt...haha..then thr were these few indo kid making so much noise...nd guess wat i saw the timezone regulars too..aft eating we actualli wanted 2 walk arnd but then decided to go sheesha..haha..we wen to whr yuresh say he used to go...merdandy..then so we tried imran recommendation which was nt bad kinda nice...haha..while we were sheesha-ing we talked abt so much nonsense nd watsoeva...omg...stayed thr till abt 11 like tat..we all walked back to laselle busstop waited till their buses came then i left to home...parents angry cos i everyday keep coming home late..oh welll its the hols..pls give in a lil...haha...i realli find facebook realli useful nd effective nd efficient..vishal aka billy bombers guy has been texting mi since 2 plus wen i gave him ma no..tat is fast..like seriously...anyway back to ma disney channel now..wizard of wavely place...ciaoz!!cya....=)
Friday, April 9, 2010
{ 3:10 AM }
hey hey peeps...its been a long time since i last blog.haha...been busy la..haha
anyway the hols felt long at the same time felt short.i still have a no of tings i still wna do...like
1.go donut factory and eat...hail to their donut.yumyum
2.go underwater world,luge..awesome
3.i wna watch hurt locker nd mongca nd ju-on..muahaha...
4.go changi airport...strange but yea
5.go redhouse...wooohhooo scary
6.go bowling
7.go k-ing again
and the rest wen i tink of it.so far its these few...
anyway tonite gng 2 monkey bar.watching kumar performance..cool cnt wait..then gng attica.apparently according to kiran jeetin spins at krish nw..rite..1 by 1 ah.. quite happy nd excited since i hav nt been 2 either 1..yup.tats it for nw...will catch up some other time..ciaoz=)
Labels: beginning
Sunday, January 31, 2010
{ 3:32 AM }
i have been moody tis few days.so f-ing pissed wif certain ppl.they jus tink tat things revolve arnd them only nd ppl hav 2 cater to them.wth..so annoyed...aaahhhh...jus so tired of these ppl being like tat.dun worry i cn leave without u.tis few days has been thinking days 4 mi.i have decided i am nt gna be a selfish person anymore.nd perharps it is time to 4give nd 4get.lets jus c how tat goes.anyway,once everyting is settled,i am gna do wat i wan.on the selfish part i am nt gna keep baby to maself instead i will limit maself to c-ing him only abt 3 times a wk only.the rest of the days wld be for him 2 spend wif his frenz.nd it is a must.i dun wan to sound like the bad guy,denying him of his frenz.been feeling realli terrible tis few days.ma ear hurts like crazy nd i keep having headache nd cramps.aahhh....so tired.
i was tinkin maybe i wna be away on ma bdae.overseas,away fr here.relax, CHILLING.nd jus takin a break without any1 nd all...jus alone.peace nd quiet.
ppl all r like horses they all tink in 1 point of view no room for if,maybe or a reason or explanation y smth is the way it is.conclusion r jumped to.it gets annoying aft awhile nd u jus tend go hmm yea oh sry ok thx.cos u cant be bothered anymore.idk y..but i jus feel tired.wish i cld fast forward in life.i wna do well.be realli weel off nd show them wat i am worth,payback hw they treated mi.
head hurts.am gna go off 2 rest.take care hav fun..nd happy bdae SAM=)!!!haha
Labels: tired
Thursday, January 21, 2010
{ 9:33 AM }
heyhey....2day pon school in the morning to hav breakfast wif kh.nd yessss....we had the kfc waffles omg yay finally..then headed to school for POA omg tink i gna flunk the test.tutorial was so slack.then did the feedback.dint expect 2 end so early.apparently carol nd delfin jacked mi 2day.anyway it rained heavily but thank god during my practical lesson it was nt.lesson 2day again was like slack jus drive arnd amk AGAIN!!sian alr...
anyway am toking to kh abt his bro nw.the more i comfort his the more i feel god was unfair.he shld hav let mi go wen i wanted 2 nd nt bring ma parents so much nonsense.i hav done so much more worst then him.infact i actualli tink cos of those tings mi nd ma eldest bro r like tat.cos kh was like him.instead kh said if punching him wld wake him up i guess i cn understand wat sukh tot wen he did tat 2 mi.but dun tink it is a gd idea.if u cn c nw.SO SO SO much more i have done yet i hav been punished so lil...i deserve to be hanged or smth.wat kind of daughter,sister am i.yet..jus tis minor cases cn make kh so mad.i cant imagine ma parents nd ma bros.wat they are tinkin of mi...i dun dare to tink.i feel like i shld nt even be here.idk wat else 2 say.suddenly feel so lose.like everyting jus hitting mi back once more.Flashback.anyway....kh i tink u shld jus be patience wif ur bro...hang out wif him then tok 2 him..explain things 2 him.he is nt as bad as u tink.tink wif a calm mind nd nt wen u r full of anger...learn 2 understand him nd all.no matter wat u guys r a family nd will stick tgt as a family.family are oso like couples.u guys quarrel,'break-Up'in family terms would be nt tok 2 each other.but jus tink hw long will more do u guys hav tgt being like tis...u all gna be 21 tis yr then few yrs u 2will be married nd move away nd in a yr only hw many times then will mit up.it wont be the same anymore.tink it over k.no 1 is perfect nd no 1 cn read minds.
Song of the day:simple plan-Perfect(love tis song cos it bring tears 2 ma eyes)
Labels: i am the most horrible creature.
