Friday, December 3, 2010
{ 12:12 PM }
I dun care wateva it is..i am gna be strong..wateva is it shall be personal..nt gna let all these stuff affect ma mood wen i am out nd all..gng to enjoy..shall be strong nd deal wateva tat comes ma way..no more running away or escaping or brushing it under the carpet..ready to move on nd gna persist once i hav decide wat the truth is..i hav ma close frenz nd tats all i need.nd they r the only ppl tat knows the truth nd the only ppl who needs to noe..takin 1 step at a time..i will find ma way once again..COS BELINDA NEVER gives up or says die...i will pick maself up nd walk with full confidence nd upright nt afraid or embarrassed.all i cn say is belinda will be BACK!!
Labels: coming back round
{ 10:31 AM }
hey,i noe i am blogging aft so long.idk jus felt like blogging again once again..too frustrated.i wonder y is thr always a routine or a pattern ta ppl wld follow.like wen they lose smth they will tend to do these certain thing to try nd get back wat they hav lost.however they dun realise tat the more they do the more they lose.i am jus annoyed by the fact that thr always has to be some drama..once things r gng well,some drama has to start..i realli dun understand y..
1 ting i am sure is i realli realli miss u so much..nd i so wished tat we had tok tings out.we jus left things like tat..u dun even noe wat was wrong nd i bet u dint reflect nd still wondering wat was wrong.but recently u hav change so so much tat i dun even noe who u r alr..looking for the 1 i loved.hating the new u...the way u r,the way u tok.
1 thing i am so upset abt is tat tis end of yr realli is kind shattering mi inside bit by bit..in 1 month so so much has happen..the person i tot knew mi disappointed mi so so much..claiming to be who u r,u cnt even rmb things abt mi..u dun even noe mi..if u say i am like tat then wat r u??hav u tot abt tat..saying who u r hav u eva abt mi at all or was it all abt u only??i made u ma everyting,helped u,thr 4 u wen u called nd everyting but u left mi nth at all..it hurts so much u noe wat happened nd wat u did..i dint expect tis fr u..i have seen u do tis to ppl but nvr tot to mi..cos in a way i looked up to u..but guess i was totally nd utterly wrong.still so lost for words..
1 more ting i am so freaking upset abt was wat happens wen everyting tat u believe in turns out to be all a lie...lie lie lie..i realli dunno wat to say abt tis..i jus wna 4get everyting every single god damn ting..i wish i cld turn back time nd nvr wen for the party..cos u guys r all fakes..fakes fakes...liars liars..i cnt believe wat it..srsly i realli tot u were the most geninue 1..believed every word u said.but nw i find out tat u lied to mi..so unexpected..totally lost right nw...who to believe,whether the words u say r truth..i dint ask u once only..the only standing brick jus collasp..i was honest wif u guys,y cnt u guys do the same..i am realli upset wif u..i realli dun wan to tok abt it or tink abt it or face tis eva again...all will be 4gotten like a bad dream.take care and gdbye to u guys.hope u guys realli find the gals u deserve..tak it as i nvr existence nd i vanish into thin air,disappear..
I realli wna thx aida,kav,nas,ken,sangar,bay nd wc for being thr for u...u guys r realli darlings..I LOVE LOVE U GUYS LOADS!!BFFs FOREVA OK!!promise=)
Labels: tears rolling down continously..heartbroken
